It’s Not You, It’s Me

It’s the classic line during a break up.  “it’s not you, it’s me.”  Everyone usually sees this line as a bogus attempt by the “dumper” to make the “dumpee” feel better about the demise of the relationship.  But, really, it’s quite profound.  If I really look into any relationship failures, and I don’t mean just in the romantic sense, the problems are ultimately with me; my reactions, my attitude, my behavior, my temperament.

Last summer, I was really frustrated with my husband.  There was an important task that he needed to complete.  Although I wished I could do it for him, I could not.  He alone had to do it and I had been gently (and not so gently) reminding him for two years.  It was really driving me nuts.  I felt like I had tried everything.  Initially I had nagged him.  That didn’t work.  So I held off on nagging for months and months.  Still nothing.  I wrote post-it notes around the house to remind him.  Nothing was working and I was angry, losing my mind, crying.   It was ugly.  How in the world was I going to get him to do what needed to be done?  The anger I was feeling on this one issue was overflowing into other parts of our relationship and resentment was building.

I talked a little to my aunt about my frustrations and she tried to calm me down.  She understood my complaints and did see that there was an issue, but she also urged me to gain some perspective.  Was this really a big deal in the grand scheme of things?  I was being stubborn and still thought, “Well…yes!”.   I think she could see that she wasn’t getting anywhere with me so she told me that I needed to check out a book called The Power of the Praying Wife.  She said that the book included specific prayers for wives to use to pray for their husbands.  Perfect!  I remember thinking that this magical book would give me the prayers I needed to change my husband.  I had been praying for him to change some of his flawed ways for a while now and obviously God was not listening.  Clearly, I must have been saying the wrong prayers.

I went to the library and checked out The Power of the Praying Wife by Stormie Omartian.  I was ever so anxious to start changing my husband through prayer.  As I started to read, I was surprised and a little annoyed to find that the first chapter had nothing to do with changing Dear Hubby and everything to do with changing ME.  This was not what I was expecting.  I immediately started to feel a little bitter towards the author.  She was telling me that I needed to pray to God to make a change in ME first before doing anything else.  Wait…what?  Me?  But, HE was the one forgetting to do something really important!!  Not me!  Why did I need to change?

After some internal struggles, I let the idea of “changing myself first” resonate for a while.  In the beginning, I tried to resist this notion.  I started to think, well, if this Stormie lady knew MY situation, she would make an exception and tell me to skip that first chapter and keeping reading.  Deep down, though, I knew that this chapter did in fact apply to me.  I asked the Holy Spirit to melt that resistance away and I was graced with some humility.  In a moment of clarity I finally realized, “It’s not you, Dear Hubby, it’s me.”  If any changes in not only our relationship but also our teamwork abilities were going to take place, I was going to have to make the first move.

After this epiphany, I started to pray diligently for God to work in and through me.  I was hoping to be transformed into someone who was a little more patient and understanding, someone who sought to find the good, not the bad, in her cherished mate.  Lord knows, Dear Hubby certainly did not focus on my flaws.  So why was I focusing on his?  Over the span of a couple of months, I did feel some changes take place in my temperament and also in my approach to the situation.  Dear Hubby still had yet to complete a certain task, but the fact that he hadn’t done so just didn’t bother me as much anymore.  Sure, the issue had not yet been resolved, but my perspective and attitude had changed.  And perhaps I started to reframe the situation a little and didn’t even see it as a “problem” anymore.  I surrendered myself to the notion that perhaps I did not know best.  Perhaps there was a good reason for his delayed action, a reason that only God and not even my Dear Hubby would understand.

Within a couple of months of reading The Power of the Praying Wife and applying its ideas to my prayer life, our particular issue was resolved.  It did not happen on my time, of course, but I was finally okay with that.  And some of my worry associated with the task at hand ended up being for nothing.  Imagine that?

I think when we experience failures of any sort in any relationship, we have to avoid the temptation to point the finger at the other person and start pointing it at the reflection we see in the mirror.  This is still not easy for me.  But, the little phrase “it’s not you, it’s me” has been a helpful reminder to look within first.  And, this is not just for marriage.  We can apply this mentality in our relationships with friends, colleagues, children, parents, and even to our relationship with God.  Especially with God.

When we are in a spiritual rut, when we don’t see God working in our lives, when we don’t think the Church has it right, when we question His existence…The problem is not Him, it’s us.

And now I feel as though I’ve opened up another can of worms.  But, I’ve been up since 3am due to pregnancy induced insomnia and two hours later I’m finally feeling like I might be able to get back to sleep.  The topic of how “it’s not you, its me” applies to my relationship with the Catholic Church and some of its teachings will just have to wait for another day.  Take care, readers!



I’d like to deviate a little from the topic of faith and talk about a financial tool that my family uses.  A little practical advice is always helpful, right? In addition to using a normal savings account at a bank, we also use an account at a website called  (I’m writing on this topic in an effort to distract me from the fact that I am in fact still pregnant, a couple days from my due date, and having a hard time being patient and trusting in God’s plan.  I’m attempting to “happily struggle” through these last days.  Wink wink!)

So, what’s SmartyPig?

Essentially, is an online piggy bank.  By using SmartyPig, you can start one account to help you save toward multiple savings goals.  Your goals may be big, small, long term, or short term. The best part is that you will earn a higher interest rate at SmartyPig than you would at your regular bricks and mortar bank. Currently the APY is 1%, which is not huge of course, but it’s a lot higher than the 0.03% APY that most of us earn on a savings account at a regular bank.

How does it work?

Perhaps you’d like to save for a vacation. First, you must determine how much you will need to save for this getaway and by when you will need the funds to pay for it. Next, you decide whether you would like to schedule automatic transfers or just make periodic transfers at your leisure.  SmartyPig will even suggest an amount to save per period if you choose the automatic transfer option.  Once you have all of those details in place, the last thing to do is make an initial minimum transfer of $25 from your checking or savings account to your new SmartyPig account.  Going forward, the minimum amount for future transfers is only $5.  Don’t worry, SmartyPig will walk you through this whole process.

It’s now months or perhaps years later.  You have reached your savings goal and have a couple of options. You may close the goal and transfer the money directly to your checking or savings account.  OR you may transfer your SmartyPig savings to a retailer gift card and earn up to an extra 11% in what SmartyPig calls a “cash boost”.   So, let’s say you have saved $1,000 for a weekend getaway and you know that you’re going to use Orbitz to book it.  The cash boost amount for Orbitz is 3%.  You can transfer the $1,000 to an Orbitz gift card and SmartyPig will add an additional $30.

How have we used SmartyPig in real life?

We use SmartyPig for several types of savings goals, including those pesky unavoidable expenses incurred when you own a home: property taxes and homeowners insurance.  Instead of putting our property tax and homeowners insurance into an escrow account and including these amounts with our mortgage payment, we transfer money periodically into SmartyPig accounts.  Monthly, we transfer 1/12 of our previous homeowners insurance bill to a SmartyPig goal account.  In the past, we also made monthly transfers to a property tax goal account.  Now, in an effort to reduce our monthly expenses (see Does Not Work Out On Paper), we annually transfer our income tax return funds to a property tax savings goal.  For example, this year, once we receive our 2014 tax return, we will transfer those funds directly into a SmartyPig goal account. We will not touch this money until 2016 when we pay our 2015 property tax bill.  Make sense?  I prefer using a SmartyPig account rather than using an escrow account because we ultimately have control of when we make transfers and we actually earn a little interest. (Every little bit counts, right?)

We like using SmartyPig for “fun saving”, too.  When we got married, over 5 years ago, I started two vacation goals.  The first was to save for a 25th wedding anniversary trip back to Hawaii, our honeymoon destination.  (Yes, Hawaii was expensive, but remember, I was working full time back then.)  We decided we’d “go big” since it would probably be a while until we would go on a week long vacation together again.  Realistically, we assumed that we would not be going on many vacations after our honeymoon since we would be saving our money to help raise a family and buy a house.  However, our hope was that we would at least go on some big anniversary trip in 25 years.  If we just put a little aside each month, then in 25 years we would have a nice little vacation fund.  (Delayed gratification is a sign of maturity, right?)

As I mentioned in another post, I also have a Disney family vacation goal account.  At the time, when I was newly married, I figured that our trip would take place in about ten years (little over four years from present day), when our oldest hypothetical child was about 8 or 9 years old and the youngest was 4 or 5 years old.  (I didn’t want to take a big trip to Disney World until everyone was totally potty trained.)  I am a total geek and did a little research and determined the cost for a family of five to spend about a week at Disney World. (Obviously I didn’t really know how many kids we would be blessed with, but I thought three was a good number to use for planning.)  The figures I found assumed that we would be staying at one of the economical Disney Parks resorts and using 5-day Hopper tickets.  I looked up airfare for five people and added that amount to the Disney prices.  Next, I took that total cost and multiplied it by some sort of inflation value and came up with approximately $7,000.

Now honestly, I don’t know if this is too much to save or too little.  But if we had $7,000 to spend on a nice family vacation, that would be great no matter what. SmartyPig did the math for me and showed that if I wanted $7,000 at the end of 10 years, I would need to contribute approximately $58 monthly.  (I believe the figure SmartyPig determined was a little less then that because their calculations factored in the interest that I was going to earn.)

When I quit my job we did have to stop contributing to our vacation goals for a while and I adjusted our Disney goal down to $6,000.  Although it was a little sad, we at least still had the money we had saved for four years sitting in the SmartyPig account.   Luckily, SmartyPig does not lock you into any sort of permanent payment schedule, so it was easy to put a halt on the monthly transfers.  As my husband started to increase his income, we were able to start contributing to these goals again.  We just contribute much less than we used to for now and we put other gifts of money from family into this account, when we can, to help offset the decrease.  Even if we don’t reach our exact goal by the time we want to take the trip, we will still have more money saved for a vacation than we would have if we’d never started the SmartyPig account in the first place.

There have been times when we started a goal for a certain purpose and then ended up needing to use it for something else. When we bought a house three years ago, I had started a goal to save towards kitchen updates.  My plan was to have enough money within two years to purchase and install granite countertops.  A year and a half later, we almost had enough to make my kitchen look shiny and new. But, alas, I had also just quit my job.  And, I knew at least one of my savings goals needed to go away in order to help pay down our car loan.  My husband and I decided that creating family memories with a fun trip was more important than granite countertops.  We left the Disney goal untouched, liquidated the kitchen savings goal and put those funds toward our car loan.  This was another way that we shuffled things around to help decrease our monthly expenses.  (Granite countertops will always be waiting for me, but my children will not always be little children.)

What would you use SmartyPig for?

I hope that I have given you some good ideas for practical applications of this tool. Perhaps you’re already thinking of ways in which SmartyPig could help your family.  Truly, the possibilities are endless! You could start a goal account to save for new appliances, BEFORE they break.  Or you could also start a Christmas spending savings goal. If you put aside a little each month, starting in January, then you would not feel some of the financial stress once the holidays roll around. It’s so much better to be able pay for something outright than going on a payment plan or using a credit card.

Are there any disadvantages to using SmartyPig?

There are a couple of things that I should note.  First, any transfer in and out of the SmartyPig account will take at least a day or two to go through.  It’s not an instant transaction. (Although this might be a bit of a nuisance, it is also beneficial to not be able to access your money immediately.  It could prevent you from making a rash decision.)  Second, you have to actually close a goal to be able to transfer the money out.  There are no partial withdrawals.  I have found this to be a little annoying at times, but not totally prohibitive.  Luckily, you may close a goal or an entire account at any time. You are never locked in to a certain time period or required to carry a minimum balance.  Aside from a couple minor inconveniences, SmartyPig is a wonderful tool to use when saving for specific financial goals.

Happy Saving!  Please post any questions you have in the comments section.

Please note: I have no affiliation with SmartyPig.